Tag Archives: pain

What if? – The Condition of Control

27 Jan

Secret Saturday

I’m struggling right now. I’m messing up, ruining everything. I’m trying not to feel anything, but I want to feel everything. I don’t want to shut him out. Since he visited and left in December,  it has been all downhill for me, for both of us. I have the gift of being able to turn it all off until I can deal with it, I lived
my life without feeling until I met him.
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A Love I Gave Myself To

14 Jan

Manic Monday

It’s Manic Monday. It could be something totally crazy or it could be about passion. Maybe today it’s both.

I was 20 when I met him and a virgin. I wanted only one lover for my entire life and I hadn’t found him, I wondered if I ever would.
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A Lonely Tear to Cry

13 Jan

Substance Sunday

Today is Substance Sunday. Time to explore the murky depths.  I’ve heard that somewhere before, but who says the depths have to be murky?

I’ve talked to my husband about things I’ve never talked to anyone else about. I let him do things to me I’ve never let anyone else do. I have yet to meet anyone else that I would have been willing to give Continue reading